Thy Will
I don't question God.
I don't question His Faithfulness
I don't question His love for me
I don't question God.
There are times when life is going smoothly and out of no where you are hit with a curve ball that hits you so hard that you feel like you can't breath even if it is just for a second. There are times when we are struck with situations that are out of our control. And for an analytical, reasoning person such as myself when you are hit with these both at the same time and you feel so confused, and every way you turn and try to reason it there is not a reason or justification. It's simply out of ones control. For some they can keep moving forward and not miss a beat, for some it leaves them lifeless and unable to get out of bed. For the analytical, overthinkers again you try to make sense of it all but you just can't. So you begin to move towards accepting it for what it is even without understanding and some days you do great with it and then there are days that it's harder to deal with and you try to find something else you can control because you can't control the situation you are facing.
That's all clear as mud isn't it!?
Over the last few months I've faced some trials and situations that have taken me off guard and some that hurt so deeply to my core. I've had situations where I've tried to make sense out of something that was never intended to make sense because there are times when we go through things in life that we in our earthly minds are not able to fully comprehend what God is doing in the spiritual realm. I go back to the 4 lines that I started with... I am not questioning God, I've questioned myself but not my God because I know He is faithful. I know that He will not forsake me, I know that He will not leave me. I know that my God has such a deep, passionate love for me that goes deeper than I could ever imagine. Earlier this week a friend shared a song with me called "Thy Will" by Hillary Scott and The Scott Family. Hillary Scott is the co-lead singer for Lady Antebellum a widely known country group. I had no idea who Hillary Scott was or what she sang but the first time I heard her song Thy Will my face was flooded with tears. She put to words what my heart has been feeling for over 2 months now. While I was hit with this unexpected curveball I've not once questioned God. I have known and felt him in the midst of it all. I have definitely felt confused, hurt, rejected, unsure, anxious, sad and many other emotions given the situation but in all of it at times have been able to find that pure peace that only God can give.
While I might not be able to adequately express all of my emotions, largely due to overthinking and over analyzing them instead of feeling them, these words that Hillary Scott has sang sums it all up! I know that I hear Him when He speaks, I said yes to Him and followed His will and yes I am confused at how I ended up here, hurting and unsure. BUT I know that He still has a plan for me and my future! We all have different situations that we are facing my hope is if you are too finding yourself in a hard situation that this song would speak to you and your situation in a personal intimate way as it did me!!
I don't question His Faithfulness
I don't question His love for me
I don't question God.
There are times when life is going smoothly and out of no where you are hit with a curve ball that hits you so hard that you feel like you can't breath even if it is just for a second. There are times when we are struck with situations that are out of our control. And for an analytical, reasoning person such as myself when you are hit with these both at the same time and you feel so confused, and every way you turn and try to reason it there is not a reason or justification. It's simply out of ones control. For some they can keep moving forward and not miss a beat, for some it leaves them lifeless and unable to get out of bed. For the analytical, overthinkers again you try to make sense of it all but you just can't. So you begin to move towards accepting it for what it is even without understanding and some days you do great with it and then there are days that it's harder to deal with and you try to find something else you can control because you can't control the situation you are facing.
That's all clear as mud isn't it!?
Over the last few months I've faced some trials and situations that have taken me off guard and some that hurt so deeply to my core. I've had situations where I've tried to make sense out of something that was never intended to make sense because there are times when we go through things in life that we in our earthly minds are not able to fully comprehend what God is doing in the spiritual realm. I go back to the 4 lines that I started with... I am not questioning God, I've questioned myself but not my God because I know He is faithful. I know that He will not forsake me, I know that He will not leave me. I know that my God has such a deep, passionate love for me that goes deeper than I could ever imagine. Earlier this week a friend shared a song with me called "Thy Will" by Hillary Scott and The Scott Family. Hillary Scott is the co-lead singer for Lady Antebellum a widely known country group. I had no idea who Hillary Scott was or what she sang but the first time I heard her song Thy Will my face was flooded with tears. She put to words what my heart has been feeling for over 2 months now. While I was hit with this unexpected curveball I've not once questioned God. I have known and felt him in the midst of it all. I have definitely felt confused, hurt, rejected, unsure, anxious, sad and many other emotions given the situation but in all of it at times have been able to find that pure peace that only God can give.
While I might not be able to adequately express all of my emotions, largely due to overthinking and over analyzing them instead of feeling them, these words that Hillary Scott has sang sums it all up! I know that I hear Him when He speaks, I said yes to Him and followed His will and yes I am confused at how I ended up here, hurting and unsure. BUT I know that He still has a plan for me and my future! We all have different situations that we are facing my hope is if you are too finding yourself in a hard situation that this song would speak to you and your situation in a personal intimate way as it did me!!
I'm so confused
I know I heard you loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don't wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
I know I heard you loud and clear
So, I followed through
Somehow I ended up here
I don't wanna think
I may never understand
That my broken heart is a part of your plan
When I try to pray
All I've got is hurt and these four words
All I've got is hurt and these four words
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know you're good
But this don't feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about
It's hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you're God
And I am not
So
But this don't feel good right now
And I know you think
Of things I could never think about
It's hard to count it all joy
Distracted by the noise
Just trying to make sense
Of all your promises
Sometimes I gotta stop
Remember that you're God
And I am not
So
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will
Thy will be done
Thy will
I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store
I know you hear me
I know you see me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Good news you have in store
I know you hear me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Goodness you have in store
I know you hear me
I know you see me, Lord
Your plans are for me
Good news you have in store
So, thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord
Thy will be done
Like a child on my knees all that comes to me is
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
Thy will be done
I know you see me
I know you hear me, Lord
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